Almost ready To Do

Almost ready To Do

Slept in a little bit this morning (for me).  I faced no alarm clock, no nagging internal voice; I woke up naturally, at just the right time.  I am now rejuvenated and it is a gorgeous morning, literally and figuratively.

This is a bit of a work weekend.  My library has its annual reading festival this weekend.  Yesterday, the libraries (there are 25 of them) had all kinds of events and as one the three organizers of the Big Event, I drove around with my two colleagues to enjoy some of the festivities the individual libraries presented.  In addition to being colleagues, we're also dear friends, so it was a treat to be able to spend the entire afternoon together, work or not.  It's a little sad to think that this will be the last year we work on this huge project together.  It is what brought us together as friends three years ago and while it is certainly hard work, we look forward to it each year, as it means being able to spend more time together while planning.  Alas, today - our big author event (Dave Eggers.  Awesome!  And a huge deal for us!) - will be our last big hurrah.  And it should be great, so we'll end on a high note.  Or I'll end on a high note.  Most people at work don't know this will be my last year.  But I know.  And my two friends know, so there is a slightly bittersweet taste to the day.  

It feels like one of those big markers.  You know...last time I'll ever do this.  Last time I'll ever do that.  Who knows, maybe one day I'll work in a library in Vienna and organize a reading festival, but I'm thinking that the odds of that are rather slim! And, honestly, I'm not sure I would want to do that, even if I could.  I think it might be time to do something new and different.  Not that I won't capitalize on my library skills and education if it'll get me a job in Vienna, but any library work I can foresee will be more corporate, research-based and less public library work.  

And, ack, here comes the nagging voice....what about work, Carrie?  Have you looked into it recently?  What ARE you going to do?  How ARE you going to make a living, legally?  Is it even possible?  It is one of the many items on a very long To Do list for Vienna.  I started the list last weekend.  And now I have a nice list.  But I have to start doing things.  My husband and I set ourselves a timeline for one of the projects - selling our furniture on Craigslist so that we can downsize apartments.  Step One.  We were going to have everything posted by the end of the week.  Last week.  And somehow, here we are, Sunday, the beginning of a new week, and we still haven't done it.  What are we thinking?  

I have/we have GOT TO get our game on if this is really going to happen.  I swear.  This week.  That big To Do list.  Game on.  (It's got to be.)